I feel horrible. He's so sweet and thoughtful, but I'm just not feeling it. But I'm so terrified of telling him, because I don't want to hurt his feelings. Which isn't good because John keeps telling me the longer I wait, the worse it will be. I mean, he really tries hard. He really took the time to get to know me. Like, we would go on walks and stuff and just talk, and it was so nice. But then it started getting kind of complicated because of all this "feelings" business. And he made me lasagna last night and then took me to the Nutcracker, my fav! I don't understand why I am not infatuated. And now I just feel like a horrible person. I know people can't force themselves to like others, but I really don't understand this one. I think I just like him so much more as a friend. And I'm totally in love with his roommate lol, but I don't think that's it. I suppose tonight is the night I am finally going to say something. Wish me luck!