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4th-May-2009 10:41 am - Well, that was fun
Change of plans. I'm still excited to go home this weekend, but just to go shopping. And to see my family. I guess he just needed someone to help him pass the time?

Lesson learned.
28th-Apr-2009 05:31 pm - :D
 Even with all the misunderstandings, all the doctor's appointment stuff, transfer stuff, etc. life has been extremely good. I'm going home on the 8th and I'm excited because I get to see Zachary. I mean I talk to him all the time, but it'll be nice to see him. I can't wait until this summer, oh well only three more weeks!!

I have this ceremony thing for Italian on Friday and I'm excited because I get to wear my Easter dress! And then formal is that night, woo hoo! And I think Brandy is coming up this weekend, so I'm really pumped! I think the next few weeks will fly by, horrah!
22nd-Apr-2009 03:13 pm - Um, seriously?
This is the third time I've had to argue with the registrar's office about THE SAME TRANSCRIPT!! I think they don't want me to leave... haha. Right. Anyway, my mom is going to see a surgeon today, so that means everything is going to be even better, yay! Okay enough procrastinating, time to write my paper.
21st-Apr-2009 04:24 pm - Hmm
 What to make of all this... I don't know. I guess it isn't a big deal, so I shouldn't stress over it. What happens happens and I do trust him... I think. I don't know, he was just bitching about how I "talked to other guys and make one on one plans with them" and don't tell these guys about him, but isn't he kind of doing the same thing? But oh well, I have other things to worry about. Like my visual arts paper due on Thursday, that I haven't started yet... And trying to figure out what I need to do to convince UT to send my transcript, because please, thank you and 10 bucks isn't enough. Any ideas?
17th-Apr-2009 02:22 pm(no subject)
I think I have let myself get too out of focus. I should remember what my mom told me when I left for school in June, "Don't forget what you're going to college for." It sounds dumb, but I think I've let life and all of this social business take over. It has started to make me think too much about everything and question everything and doubt everything and all this other stuff that is completely unnecessary right now.I don't feel like being here, so I should go home this weekend. But I don't feel like being there either. I think I'm just going to spend the weekend in the library with my homework. Man, I'm lame haha

Only 5 ish more weeks
6th-Apr-2009 07:26 pm - One day at a time
Life is good right now. Well, except for school. I guess I'm just over it, I mean I've been going to school for three straight semesters. I'm ready for a nice long break. Only I won't really have one because I'm going to take summer classes during both summer sessions... fml. I can't wait to go home for Easter and see my family and some friends and our brand new baby puppies!!! They looked so cute when Brandy sent me a picture of them! Anyway, I guess I should start studying because I have two tests tomorrow, yippie! Not...
31st-Mar-2009 12:08 am - what's the deal

 I've been feeling really out of it the past couple of days. Just like I'm not satisfied with myself and with the way things are going. I mean they were going really well, but now it's just kinda.... bleh.


I don't think he likes my friends. That really bothers me. I mean he has the right to an opinion but he doesn't have the right to talk about them that way. He doesn't even know them. And I don't know, it just is weird. I mean I'm really happy when I'm around him, but I don't want my friends not to like him because I've dealt with that before and they were right. I would hate to do that to them again. I guess we'll just see what happens! I'm soooooo ready for this summer. I'm tired of UT and of Austin and I just can't wait to go back home and enjoy life for a little while! At least it's only about a month until then

28th-Feb-2009 02:03 pm - FML
3 test, 1 oral presentation, 1 paper - 2 weeks. FML

At least the weather is nice? And spring break is coming up soon! And people make me happy :) and my friends are amazing and hilarious and fun!

I can't believe March starts tomorrow! You know what that means... MY BIRTHDAY IS COMING UP! Yaaaaaaay! Anyway, I suppose I should get back to studying... what a buzzkill
25th-Feb-2009 09:49 pm - :)
I'm super excited about spring break! Only a couple weeks left until I get to finally enjoy the beach! This semester is going soooo much better than the fall and last summer, but I'm still leaving Austin in May :( I think the only reason I'm doing well is because I'm taking a butt load of liberal arts classes...

So many wonderful things are happening! It turns out we're going skiing in New Mexico for Christmas this year - I know it's still 10 months away, but I can't wait! I'm pretty sure Brandalyn and I are going to Europe with Mr. Boyd in summer 2010! Which is also a pretty long time from now, but I can't wait! I know none of my friends will be going with me, but Brandalyn will be there, and maybe my friends' absence will help me enjoy the beauty of everything even more. I learned about a lot of different artworks and buildings architecture that I can't wait to see and experience!

I've also kind of been talking to this guy, but I don't want to jinx it so I'm not gonna say anything else... :)
I feel horrible. He's so sweet and thoughtful, but I'm just not feeling it. But I'm so terrified of telling him, because I don't want to hurt his feelings. Which isn't good because John keeps telling me the longer I wait, the worse it will be. I mean, he really tries hard. He really took the time to get to know me. Like, we would go on walks and stuff and just talk, and it was so nice. But then it started getting kind of complicated because of all this "feelings" business. And he made me lasagna last night and then took me to the Nutcracker, my fav! I don't understand why I am not infatuated. And now I just feel like a horrible person. I know people can't force themselves to like others, but I really don't understand this one. I think I just like him so much more as a friend. And I'm totally in love with his roommate lol, but I don't think that's it. I suppose tonight is the night I am finally going to say something. Wish me luck!
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